The End

dog on couchThe year is just hours away from being over.  Lots of people are reflecting on the old year and making plans for the new.  I don’t think I’m making resolutions this year.  My year ended in such a way that I’m more aware than ever that the best laid plans often go astray.  If I have a resolution at all, it’s to live one day at a time.  My resolutions tend to be about getting into shape and getting organized.  In my current condition, I can’t do either of those.  I thought briefly about setting a goal to read, say, all the pulitzer prize winning non-fiction books.  But then, I thought, I don’t really have time for that.  Everything takes me a little longer these days, from showering and dressing to just getting from one place to another.  And I’m exhausted by the end of it.  I think I’m just going to go through my days as best I can, rest as much as possible, and hope for the best.

Over the break, I’ve had time to basically do nothing.  I’ve hung out with my family, watched hours of Mythbusters (thanks to a marathon on the Science Channel), worked crossword puzzles, and of course, surf the Internet.  I’m rarely this idle.  I usually tackle something everyday.  Last year, I was building a cat door tracker.  Sure, I always take breaks, but they’re breaks between doing other “productive” things.  Yes, it sucks to not be able to do much and to be so reliant on others for such simple things as getting food.  But, it’s given me a new perspective on what’s really important, what really *has* to get done and what we just do because we think we ought to.  I’ve been essentially forced to relax, and I’m going to try to remember to take the time for relaxing once I am back on my feet. And to remember that sometimes doing nothing is the right thing to do.

One Reply to “The End”

  1. “go through my days as best I can, rest as much as possible, and hope for the best” sounds like a wonderful New Year’s “resolution”! Wishing you continued healing.

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