I’m trying to wrap my head around all that I have going on, mostly at work. It’s all good. It’s all important, and yet, I feel like I’m barely keeping the balls in the air. And I have this nagging sense that I’m not up to the task. Those balls are going to drop. I’m having a hard time owning the authority, the expertise I have. This is a familiar feeling. I had it when working on my Ph.D. There’s a little imposter syndrome in there, but there’s also fear of failure, fear of angering people, fear of making the wrong decision.
I keep telling myself to own it. To just do what I think is right, work as hard as I can, and own whatever happens. But I’m struggling a bit. Am I working hard enough? Is there something i could do better? what can i delegate? Calgon, take me away, is sounding better and better.