The Meaning of Life is over

That is, I’ve turned 43.  I’m now truly into my 40s.  I started a new job near the end of my 42nd year.  This time last year, I’d sent off some resumes for teaching positions.  But the job I currently have had not been posted yet.  It would be another month before that would happen.

For 43, I feel pretty damn good.  I feel lucky to have been able to shift careers and to so far, be somewhat successful.  I have much to learn, but that’s keeping me young.

I keep having these nagging dreams about my weight, which isn’t bad, but I think I’m subconsciously worried about it.  I dreamt that I stepped on a scale and it zoomed up to well over 200.  And then I dreamt that I took off my clothes and my body just expanded, like one of those expanding animals you add water to.  I took my exercise clothes to work a week ago.  A colleague and I have been planning to work out together, but neither of us have managed it yet.  Friday is about the only day we don’t end up in an after-school meeting and we don’t feel like  working out on Fridays.  Sigh.

I was listening to the radio the other day and there was a local story about motivation to lost weight.  The main thrust of the argument was that if you’re doing it for vanity, it’s less likely to work.  Sadly, that’s where I am right now.  Intellectually, I can discuss the health benefits, but emotionally, I’m in it to look good in my clothes.

I’d make it a goal for the next year to lose x number of pounds, but I think I’m too focused on other things.  One day I’ll post here about going to the gym every day, but until then, I’ll settle for the way I look at 43.  It’s not so bad.

5 Replies to “The Meaning of Life is over”

  1. Happy Birthday!

    I think it’s remarkable that you’ve been able to switch careers so successfully. Particularly in this economy.

    Obviously, the 40s are where it’s at!

  2. Happy Birthday! I don’t want to think too much about turning 40 in July 🙁 but I know I’ll be OK (OBVIOUSLY!) 😉

    I’m thrilled to see how happy you are in your new career, I really am.

    (ha, I didn’t finish this and then went to fb book and said “happy birthday again”)… ha… this online life is funny…

  3. I agree with the radio guys–when it was just a passing thought to lose five pounds or so, I wasn’t very motivated, but now that I’m actually in danger of not being able to wear some of my pants? I’ve been exercising pretty regularly and plan to keep doing so until all my pants fit me again!

  4. Hi Laura,
    Being 6 years older than you are and still working furiously, I belive in; never to take life seriously, because in the end nobody gets out alive anyway..

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