I reached 10,000 visitors–as did jo(e).
I feel bad that I haven’t been posting much or reading much either. Work is fantastically busy right now. In fact, I should be doing something for work, but I’m not sure I’m going to until tomorrow morning. I just don’t have it in me.
I’m also reading a million books at once–okay 3. I’ve been working on the writing. I’m hoping to escape to Starbucks for a bit this weekend and write. Man, I am beat.
Can I be petty for a moment? I’m obsessing over a desk, or really what it represents.
So a guy is moving into our space. This guy is someone I like and respect, but I’m not entirely sure what his responsibilities are and how he fits into the food chain relative to me. Why this is important to me, I don’t know. Technically, we’re on the same level, but I think realistically, he’s higher up in the pecking order.
So his desk arrived today–and it’s huge. Me and the web guy, who share the office full time, plus the language guy, who’s there half time, have hand-me-down, small wooden desks. Most of the time, you can’t see the top of my desk. It’s piled with books and papers and folders. I’m a have-to-have-everything-right-in-front-of-me person.
So the desk has solidfied my feeling that this guy is “better” than me and made me feel all jealous. It’s just stupid, really, for me to feel this way. And I’m harboring horrible feelings like he’s been sent to spy on us or something. It’s just icky and I have to get over it. Thus, I’m blogging it, purging it from my mind until I nearly walk into the desk–and all it represents–tomorrow morning. Breathe deeply, count to ten.
Yesterday was insane–a good kind of insane, but insane. I am in the process of scheduling 21 interviews with students (they begin today), so I had a few callbacks and e-mails to make for that. I’m also trying to coordinate faculty schedules for the same program. I met with a resources person and helped them put up their new newsletter.
Then began the back-to-back meetings:
12:00-1:00–discuss fall course and blogging workshop this Friday
1:00-2:00–conference call for technology and writing grant
2:00-3:00–curriculum support meeting
3:00-3:30–work with dining services staff to create video clips
I had no brain left after that. All the meetings were very productive. I spent the rest of the day reading e-mail and–finally–posting a note about the Supreme Court hearing the MGM vs. Grokster case. Shew.
I like days that have a lot going on, but I’m so spent–physically and emotionally–afterwards. It looks like today will be similar.
Well writing two posts about my job anxiety (one of which was eaten of course) must have worked out some karma because I had an excellent day today. I got a lot accomplished, including insisting a somewhat technophobic faculty member do her own work (nicely, of course and with plenty of instructions) and she did! and I was actually proud of her. It was like it was my own kid. The best part was, it was much less work for me this way. So cool.
Then, I got invited to give a talk at another University nearby. Yippee! Not only am I excited for my own professional growth, but I love connecting with the surrounding schools. We can share great ideas and it’s great to be able to say, well, Big U down the street does it this way. Now, I have to live up to my reputation. Oh, and did I mention that this little nugget came through my professional blog. Yeah, I’m a little too tickled for my own good. What can I say?
Blogger, on the other hand, is experiencing bad karma. I had to wait about half an hour to post this. And there was yesterday with the eating of the post and as jo(e) said in her comment below, comments are amazingly slow. I’m so tempted to transfer this whole thing over to typepad. I kind of like it here though. What do you all think?
My post that got eaten was about job anxiety. I don’t have that much. But enough.
First, I actually like and care about my job. It’s not just a job to me. I try to treat it that way for my own sanity, but it’s hard. I like to think about what I’m doing, study it, write about it. So when things aren’t going well, I have a hard time just blowing it off.
Second, a lot of people around me are frustrated by their jobs, either by people they have to deal with or by certain aspects of their jobs. I commiserate and sympathize with these people.
Third, I struggle with wanting to excel at my job, but not really knowing what that would mean for someone in my position. There’s no clear guidelines to indicate when I’m doing a good job.
Finally, I’m in a kind of weird situation with Mr. Geeky working at the same institution and going up for tenure. If he doesn’t get tenure, it’s likely I will move on as well. And that’s kind of weird for me. I think I’d like to stick around for at least 3 more years, possibly longer, depending on how things are going, but I might have to contemplate a huge relocation.
It sucks to be riding sidecar. And it really wouldn’t matter, I guess, if I were doing something different. I’d still have to at least consider the possibility of moving in a year. Did I mention this is the second time I’ve been through this anxiety?
Here was once a lovely post . . . eaten by blogger. I think that that’s a sign to go to bed and contemplate moving the blog . . . sigh.
So is it fixed now? I took Steven Krause out–sorry Steve. How odd.
Breaks are good. And I don’t feel too put upon to go back to work. I have some projects to look forward to.
It was really nice to not have a schedule. In all seriousness, I could get used to that. Unfortunately, I really need my job. I’d love to find the perfect part-time job that paid me enough, but I’m thinking that’s out of the question for now.
I was able to catch up on a few things: laundry, writing, exercise. Fitting all those in while working is difficult. I’m going to try though.
I am so affected by the weather. The weather was awful all week and it’s even worse today. I am so unmotivated when it’s icky outside. My world shrunk down to the inside of my house. Maybe that’s what it will be like when I’m 80. It’s not so bad really.
I’m going to take a short break and not blog this weekend. I’ve gorged myself this week. It’s been quite fun, but I want to take a break. In the spirit of Laura at 11D, I leave you with some links and brief thoughts for your reading pleasure.
Have a good weekend everyone. See you on Monday.
Following Dr. K, who did the Good Friday/Easter edition, I did the spring edition. I only had two songs with spring in the title, so I searched for flower, tulips, daffodils, and finally, birds (I have a lot of bird songs). There are a few SXSW songs here, all of which are good.
In The Springtime Of His Voodoo–Tori Amos Boys For Pele
Waiting for Spring–Dierdre SXSW 2005 Showcasing Artist
Flower Child–Lenny Kravitz Let Love Rule
Daffodil Lament–The Cranberries No Need to Argue
Three Little Birds–Bob Marley & The Wailers Legend
the littlest bird–The Be Good Tanyas SXSW 2005 Showcasing Artist
My Bird Performs–XTC Nonsuch
I\’ll Be Yr Bird–M. Ward SXSW 2005 Showcasing Artist
Birdhouse In Your Soul–They Might Be Giants Flood
And Your Bird Can Sing–The Beatles Revolver
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